To my patients: Confessions of a new nurse
Sometimes I watch YouTube videos to review my tracheostomy care and wet to dry dressing changes before coming to your house
Sometimes ...actually every time before i put in an IV i say extremely sincere prayers that it will work and i am pretty sure that's the only way I ever make it in to your vein
Sometimes I take a bath in hand sanitizer when I get back in my car because even though I told you I see these kinds of things all the time , really I'm totally grossed out on the inside ... Like when I'm cutting your toenails and one of them flies up and gets stuck in my hair. Ew.
Sometimes I take longer on your admit assessment and questions because you are actually a really cool person and I'd rather hear all about your fascinating life than sit in my filthy car any longer
Sometimes I use the "for customers only" bathrooms in places I am not in any way shape or form a customer because baby fox is kicking my bladder so hard I have to pull over at the nearest stop to keep from peeing my scrubs.
Sometimes I don't wear makeup to work because apparently you take me more seriously that way.
Sometimes you tell a joke when I'm checking your heart beat and I don't laugh because i am concentrating so hard that the "I'm a nurse" section of my brain has a hard time connecting with the "I'm a human being with social skills" part of it.
It really was funny though.
Sometimes you cry when I'm at your house because you are tired of being sick. Sometimes I cry when I leave your house because I know you aren't going to heal.
Sometimes I wonder why I ever wanted to be a nurse.
But most times I thank heaven for the chance to take care of you and make your life a little better.