A job!

Waiting, waiting, waiting. That's how I felt my life had been recently.

Waiting to take the NCLEX...
Waiting to get my scores back...
Waiting to hear back from so very many job applications...
Waiting to hear anything about Evan's Job...

And if one more person told me it was so great that I had a nursing degree because I could always find a job, I was going to scream. The combination of being a new grad + the not-so-hot economy + living in Salt Lake Valley where 1,000 RN's graduate every 6 months was definitely working against me.

I have this bad habit of not asking for help. It's like it hurts my pride when I can't do things all by myself. Plus if I ask someone for help they are going to see all my weaknesses! No thank you!

Enter Seminary-teaching husband: "How is your scripture study?"

                                   

Seriously is that your answer to everything?? 

Why yes. Yes it is.

So I gave in. And that's when I found Hosea and he told me this:

Hosea 5:15

I will go and return to my place, 

till they acknowledge their offence, 

and seek my face:

in their affliction they will seek me early.

So I started praying for help.

And the next day I still didn't have a job. Wouldn't you know it?

But luckily as I studied I also found Peter and he told me this:

1 Peter 1:7

That the trial of your faith, 

being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, 

though it be tried with fire, 

might be found unto praise and honour and glory 

at the appearing of Jesus Christ.

It was the last line that I loved. Because I felt like it wasn't talking about after I die, when I see Christ again. It was talking about during my "trial of faith", that Christ would appear. Not like I had a vision or anything like that, just that I would "see" Him in my life, recognize his hand guiding me through my trial. 

So I kept studying. And I found Alma, and Mosiah, and Isaiah, and so many others who told me that trials are a blessing. Trails tell you that the Lord still cares, otherwise he wouldn't waste his time trying to teach you something or test your faith if he had already given up on you. And they told me that trails are (for me anyway) the best way to bring me to Christ. They bring me to my knees and force me to depend on him when I finally give up on trying to do it alone. 

Now, to be clear, I did not then and there get on my knees and say, "Dear Heavenly Father thank you so much for all this waiting, I'd like to keep waiting forever and ever because I am just learning so much." Get real. But the stress was eased. And I softened my heart and had a little more patience and a little more faith.

And a few weeks ago I started getting interviews.

And yesterday I got a phone call with a job offer from Applegate Home Health.

And I accepted!

There are still lots of things we are waiting for but in the list of possible trials, I suppose waiting is a pretty easy one on the list. I am so excited and grateful for the opportunity to start a new job! And in the mean time I will continue my scripture study because it makes life so much better.